When I published posts in the Sports Card Tour series I often felt as though the project was too ambitious. Computer issues, work stress, and home life disrupted several posts. On at least two occasions I had a panic attack because I couldn't write. It was immature and alarming, and it didn't stop me. I took a deep breath and regrouped. I finished the race and enjoyed the ride.
Completing that project made me feel invincible. I craved another challenge. Thirty posts, thirty days, thirty teams. Again, I questioned my ability to follow through. Yet I shook off the doubt and got the ball rolling. And then...
To say I've gone into hiding because some jackass disagreed with my picks for the Orioles outfield is.. an oversimplification. It may have even been a blessing in disguise. The truth is, I was already behind schedule due to circumstances beyond my control, and on the edge of another panic attack. I needed a day or two to vent, dust myself off, and recharge. But I had afforded myself no such luxury - and the next team in the queue was my personal favorite. I did not have the time or the mental clarity to reveal the Red Sox all-time team. And so I stepped away for a day. And a day became a week and a week became a month and a month became two.
In the meantime, I spent more time with my family. I went out for walks (shedding a few pounds in the process), played soccer with my girls, organized my collection (again), read articles on Deadspin (R.I.P), and watched the playoffs. Once Washington won the World Series (and my daughter's soccer season ended) I suddenly had some free time. I lurked around my old blogger hangouts - Penny Sleeves, Jesters, Chronicles, BCB. I peeked at Brian's Save Second Base event - which reminded me of another post I failed to follow through on.
I didn't plan on a prolonged hiatus, and once it happened I didn't plan on returning. But that too has happened. I won't even attempt to predict how I'll feel in the next two months. Perhaps I'll follow through on completing the all-time teams project, at a much more manageable pace. Perhaps I'll sneak away again until the holidays are over.
Thanks and apologies to those of you who reached out, emailed, sent cards to me, or mentioned me on your blog. I will get back to you all asap.